Dear Wolfies,
I needed a change that blogger could not give me.
I have continued my evolution blogs at:
actionwolfe.wordpress.com
xx
Friday, June 25, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Change.
So I talked about change in my last blog. The reasonIdidn't really want to talk about it was because I am still coming to terms with a lot in my head.
Within the last 11 days I have had a total health overhaul. I decided enough was enough and have made big advances in where I am with myself. At times now I can see the goals, at times I fears slipping back to where I was. Within 11 days I have lost close to 7 kilos, became a hell of a lot fitter and starting to understand what I was doing wrong within the lifestyle I was living in. It was not healthy, but I learnt to be that way from a young age. In saying that I do not blame the people who brought me up, I love them to pieces, they were doing their best to bring me up strong and healthy. I have to unlearn my bad habbits.
Over the last 2 weeks I have been hit with these sudden realisations of what the old me was like. I had incorrect portion sizes. I had incorrect diatary ideals. I had a lack of enthusiasm for exercise. Now, I am trying to correct all these. Normally weight loss would go slowly and be a long drawn out process, and it should be. But with the help of my doctor I have been able to speed it up. Because it has happened quickly, for the first time I realised how big of an impact 7 kilos can make. Clothes that are baggy on me now were tight two weeks ago. I actually ran last night during my exercise session and enjoyed it. I feel like I'm coming forward in bounds and leaps.
The moment that hit the the worst however, is at my birthday dinner. I watched a member of my family consume a large amount of food. Whilst watching in awe, suddenly realised that was once me. My mother and sister kept asking if I wanted to try some of theirs, or I could finnish their plate for them. That's when it struck. I was a living garbage disposal. I declined. On the way home I had images of me scoffing in the middle of a restraunt and my family just going on with life as if me doing that was normal because they were used to it. On the way home I burst into tears. First sad ones, and then they turned into tears of happiness. I have finally found the power to escape this grasp being overweight has on me.
Sure I have a long way to go, but I believe this time I am going to get there. I am going to enjoy life instead of living behind a facade of happiness. I refuse to go back to the weight that I was, and I refuse to stay at the weight that I am at. No matter how slow or drawn out the process is.
Yes, this blog has a common connection between the posts that is love. This is the post where I tell you that I amn trying to love myself, because where I was at two weeks ago was me being comfortable with myself. But I didn't love me, and if you can't say you love being you your life wont eventuate. Or it will, just a dull and uncolourful version of it.
xx Action Wolfe
Within the last 11 days I have had a total health overhaul. I decided enough was enough and have made big advances in where I am with myself. At times now I can see the goals, at times I fears slipping back to where I was. Within 11 days I have lost close to 7 kilos, became a hell of a lot fitter and starting to understand what I was doing wrong within the lifestyle I was living in. It was not healthy, but I learnt to be that way from a young age. In saying that I do not blame the people who brought me up, I love them to pieces, they were doing their best to bring me up strong and healthy. I have to unlearn my bad habbits.
Over the last 2 weeks I have been hit with these sudden realisations of what the old me was like. I had incorrect portion sizes. I had incorrect diatary ideals. I had a lack of enthusiasm for exercise. Now, I am trying to correct all these. Normally weight loss would go slowly and be a long drawn out process, and it should be. But with the help of my doctor I have been able to speed it up. Because it has happened quickly, for the first time I realised how big of an impact 7 kilos can make. Clothes that are baggy on me now were tight two weeks ago. I actually ran last night during my exercise session and enjoyed it. I feel like I'm coming forward in bounds and leaps.
The moment that hit the the worst however, is at my birthday dinner. I watched a member of my family consume a large amount of food. Whilst watching in awe, suddenly realised that was once me. My mother and sister kept asking if I wanted to try some of theirs, or I could finnish their plate for them. That's when it struck. I was a living garbage disposal. I declined. On the way home I had images of me scoffing in the middle of a restraunt and my family just going on with life as if me doing that was normal because they were used to it. On the way home I burst into tears. First sad ones, and then they turned into tears of happiness. I have finally found the power to escape this grasp being overweight has on me.
Sure I have a long way to go, but I believe this time I am going to get there. I am going to enjoy life instead of living behind a facade of happiness. I refuse to go back to the weight that I was, and I refuse to stay at the weight that I am at. No matter how slow or drawn out the process is.
Yes, this blog has a common connection between the posts that is love. This is the post where I tell you that I amn trying to love myself, because where I was at two weeks ago was me being comfortable with myself. But I didn't love me, and if you can't say you love being you your life wont eventuate. Or it will, just a dull and uncolourful version of it.
xx Action Wolfe
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Hey Wolfies.
The reason I haven't blogged in a bit is because I haven't needed to.
I'm going through a self transformation at the moment.
I'm shedding things out of my life that aren't doing me any favors.
Don't worry blogs will keep coming, just need to do this before I start writing again.
xx Action Wolfe
I'm going through a self transformation at the moment.
I'm shedding things out of my life that aren't doing me any favors.
Don't worry blogs will keep coming, just need to do this before I start writing again.
xx Action Wolfe
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